sixteen.

yesterday i got my hair cut and i like it. my hair was a wreck from the forty-five minutes i spent tearing it out of that pony tail dread i had over the summer and now it feels a bit healthier which is nice. i am showering more these days, i am not really sure why. i feel dirtier here possibly. the shower here is quite enjoyable, although a stream of water usually is scorching hot and i get burned when i first get in. i bumped showering up to maybe two times a week which is quite the change from two times a month but now that my hair is shorter that number may decline again.

my days here have mostly been filled with hanging out with friends and being really bad at going to school. i am having a tough time finding the motivation to do homework or to go to class even. it's bad but all i am trying to do is pass. hopefully i dont screw up enough to not even accomplish that. i tell myself when i get back from break i will be better.

my birthday is in 5 days. tuesday to be exact. 23 on the 23rd. a whole lifetime of waiting and it is coming. im a little nervous cause i really, naively have big hopes for this year but it will probably just be like any other.

i am drinking more than usual these days too. everyone just says, oh its rochester it's what we do. i never drank much here before but these days i am enjoying it more. and by more than usual i mean like two drinks or so twice a week. probably not a lot by anyones standards.

i had a pretty alright day yesterday. my midterm that i was not ready for in the least got cancelled. john and i watched twin peaks and moved over some of my records(finally!) we had plans of going to the mall but he got called into work. i went ot get my hair cut, watched some my so called life with roomates and roy. then dave and jon and i spent 3 hours doing a cross word puzzle. with some help from the dictionary and maybe a little cheating we finished? it. clue: sticky substances, answer goos.
we will only know next weeke. after i headed to the bug jar for johns dj night. danced a little, talked a little. liked people a bit more. some of us walked to marks and then home.

not sure when i am heading home for the holidays yet.
i might just be home for a few days.

there are so many people i miss a ton and i need to call.