eighteen.

a note on john (one) for all you curious souls:

he and i both don't want any sort of relationship and when we talk we kind of get to the point where we agree it makes sense for us not to be see each other but then we both don't want to not be around each other. i am just having fun and enjoying having the good friend and that's all i need or really all want right now. even so, we both work on being better to each other. we (i) can be whatever we (i) need to be.

don't worry about me i say, i am always okay. i would rather not think about it or hash it out so much. it is what it is, until it needs to change.